I choose my path . i walk wif it my own .

something different now .
Idk how to say . But i sense is different .
Nothing going to change it .
useless it started to think .

love me from who i'm , and i will love you back .
accept me , if not fuck off .


went woodlane wif jack and co .
slack at there till 10 plus .
sebis and alistair also came too .
have fun at there .
those joker . hahaha .
train back to yewtee have dinner there .
after tat go to lb for dota session .
play till 12 plus . went back to yew tee .
feel abit boring . bought 1 tiger and drink wif yy onli .
tok cock wif yy and jack till 3 plus and went back home .


Tattoo for life ^^

i noe nothing going to change it .

so i dun give a damn anymore .

wat u wanna to do , go ahead .

think twice before you do it .

tat all i wanna to say to you .

Idk is there a misunderstanding wif us .
There is much more to explain .

I'm still waiting for phone my to rang to see your msg .
I waiting for so many thing to happen .
Noe tat you are upset , wat can i do now .
how i wish tat i send de msg will get a reply back .
sigh !

Went to grandmother house ytd and straight to her grandmother songka .
went there slack till 3 plus . walk home wif yy .
home-d at 4plus . damn tired .
straight sleep till now . =.=
dunno later going where . shag ar .

I once say to you " if we have not be together , i will go tattoo ."
tattoo is my part of my life .
i long wanted to put my leg .
Love me from who i'm .
and why i will wan to tattoo .
is not wan to be more gangster or wat .
is jus a art to me .

Idk will you come see tis .
and idk will you get angry or wat .
i still have to say .
there much more thing i wanted to say .
but i jus dun have the chance .

say i'm childish , gangster watever u all wan .
i'm different from other ppl .
I think for the future but not month .

ot hurt me when i say the word .
i have no choice but jus tat . pardon me .

Treasure the person , once it gone u nev find back .


Iloveyou gal .

i waiting for the time to come .

i still waiting for your reply .

i wanna to explian everything to you .

and not jus a misunderstanding .

currently at my grandmother house doing nothing .
sigh ! sian .

idk wat i'm thinking now . sigh .
Fan about r/s thing ?
nah .
About money . haiis .
nowaday have been saving money .
cos wanna to put my tattoo .
dun tok about tis liao . haha .

as normal . went to sec sch visit teacher half-way go mia . =.=
lols . went back home and went to visit my grandmother .
play wif my 2 naughty cousin . haha .
maple wif them and nothing to do agian . =.=
now waiting for dad to finish his mahjong jiu go out find them .

shag shag shag . nothing to do . haiis.
Boring Lah !!

have quit smoking too .
wee~~

goodbye . ^^

UPDATE !!

back to post once again .
not changing any thing in my blog .

ya, maybe no point giving attitude to you all .
all she need is jus time .
sorry all who ask about me and her .
and sorry for giving attitude when toking to you all .

gal . stay strong ok .
even your grandmother have pass away . there still lot of fren outside caring for you .
dun give up so easy .
Loves .

coming sat . drinking wif bro and special guest -.- joanne
lols. next sat . brother outing .
so long nev have brother outing since when wong have stead =.=
haha .
looking foward for the brother outing .

looking forward to my tattoo too ^^
song song . lols.


no matter wat i still will wait for you .
even wat happen , my soul will be there for you .
dun cry le . i noe it hurt you alot . be strong .
no one will wan to see you cry everyday .
esp your grandmother .
take care gal .
so for the msg tat i send to you .
maybe i'm rude . sorry .

nev contact each other . onli look through each other blog .
see wat she doing . see how she feeling .
sigh .

hope thing will be better after a few more day bahx .


Iloveyou REBECCANGSHIYUN.
i will wait for you no matter wat .

Start-ing to change into a new life .

stop smoking from maybe now on .

take care gal .

loves

i still remenber everytime .

the kiss ,the msg . iloveyou

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THURSDAY .:

sian.

nothing to do tis few day . sigh

meeting bro tis few day . slacking and slacking . saving money too .

I have quit smoking liao ^^

i will stop smoking . but thing will still be the same .

pill have stop too ^^

Gal , there lot of ppl caring for you .

bear it in mind . idk will you come to my blog and see .

but still wan to tell you .

I still love you as much as last time .

feeling nev have fade at all .

dunno izzit god give tis test to me or wat .

izzit to prove how strong i'm . or even how to love a person by the whole heart .

sometime i think tat , as long i can see you happy . i'm happy enough .

but saw you cry . it hurt my heart .

currently listen to jack blog song .

make me have the mood to write all tis .

i belive u're a strong gal .

a gal tat nev fail to give up anything .

keep strong .

we wan to hear your laughter back .

i wan to see your smile .

Iloveyou rebecca .

no other gal can replace you .

i hope tat 1 day i can tell you face to face .

Iloveyou . give me another chance .

sigh .

Day pass day . nothing is change .

Off i go . bye

i have decided wat to do .
i will still wait for her . blah blah blah .

i noe u dun wan to contact me anymore .
i can feel it .
as you wish . i wont contact you till u msg or call .

decide to put my new tattoo.
by the end of the year you will see me having my left leg full ^^
i mean half . =.=

i'm so sian .
have been going out wif bro tis few day .
laughing and toking crap .
nev see as much as before le .
i trying to quit . can anyone see it .
1 day onli a puff or jus a stick .
going back to my life .

woot my mind have open .
whahha .
i will wait and wait and wait . ^^

few day nev contact you le . dunno how have you been .
see your blog , u seem like happy . then tat good . ^^
take care lot and stop pon !! Ns coming liao .

thx special , everytime i feel like toking to ppl ,
onli you at my side hearing me tok .
thx alot . last long wif koey . haha .

going to work back maybe at the hoilday .
i will still the same . pon sch if tired . ^^

phone bill was over but dad nev scold .
he like becoming more caring , but . . . sigh .
the more he care , the more i dun like .
dad knew i have broke up wif her .
he also trying to cheer me up , by asking me wanna laptop anot =.=
but i say nah .
have a com already is great , somemore i dun wan waste money .
if wan give me money i go put my tattoo xp .
whahahaha .

good nite.

iloveyou gal .

i alway at your side watching over you .

belive in me , my soul alway at there .

i'm so fan .
fuck it !!

i'm tired of living in tis world .
Love ?
wat is love . is to see your love one happy but you are hurt ?
maybe time will prove , maybe i will slowly forget her .
or maybe she will alway in my heart .

i cant bear to let go of her but i have no choice .
keep thinking of her . wat she doing all stuff .
sigh .

it wont be the same anymore .
wont get any msg from you .

To the passerby on her blog :
if u dun wan see me more sad . dun make thing worst .
i dun care u are who . stop all those shit u are doing .
u not kid anymore .

i belive time pass , i will still be wif her .

i'm so so so upset .

everything jus seem to be colourless .

My love .
i really cant let go of tis r/s .
and i have promise myself .
no matter wat , i still will wait for you .

Sorry to hurt you so much .
i can feel the pain u having .
i'm sorry for everything tat i have done before to hurt you .
i really sorry .

I wont care wat is our status now , fren or watever .
i dun give a damn .
i will still treat you like how i use to be .
and and .
most important thing is .
i still wan to have you for the future .
after exam? thing stable?
bi , i really wan you to be by my side .
really .


i will be stop blogging , till everything is stable .
my mind , everything .

i wont change my thing in my blog .
all will be kept in memoris .



Bi , i still remenber the kiss you give me .
and the day when i fetch you from work , the smile i will alway remenber .

will i still get anymore morning msg or night msg ?
sigh .

Promise me to take good care of yourself .
study hard . stop pon sch . can ?



ILOVEYOU !

I miss everything .

the smile and laughter .

take care lot dear .

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we wont be the same as before . the msg i send u , i wont get any reply back .

sigh .

so fucking upset . haiis .

wat can i do . jus stay at your side watching you laugh and smile .

good nite my dear .

I use to call you my gal ,
i use to call you my fren ,
i use to call you my love , the love tat i nev had .
when i think of you , i dunno wat to do .
when i will see you again .
i miss you like crazy , even word cant say .
i miss the way u simle .

My heart really hurt alot when i see your blog .
i dun meant to hurt you so much .
i'm sorry .

Bi , give up on me .
even it hurt me alot but i still choose the way .
i dun wan to see you sad , heartache and disappointed .
as long as you are happy , same goes to me .
i will still protect you no matter wat .
i will still wait for your descion .
.
.
i dun dare to shed my tear .
i afraid of so much thing .
the most i afraid soon going to come .
idk how i going to take it .
i cant let go of tis r/s .
.
.
.
my head is pain .
my heart is pain .
even my eye .
shed-ing tear every nite .
No one noe wat i thinkin .

Jus let me *** alone .
no one will care .
tc .

i dun wish to see you leave me behide .

cos i dun bear to leave you .

Wat now ?
another quarel and ask for seperate ?
idk . tis dunno is the how many time liao . i'm tired of all tis shit .

maybe ya , we still together , but not as close as last time .
and lastly , i really nev lie .
i try so much to explain , but u jus dun trust .

do u noe the word seperate came out from your mouth , how hurt i'm .
17th day liao .
we still like kid , quarreling and giving attitude to each other .
haha . funny .

everyone out ther .
we have not yet break up . thx .

Bi , . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

(to be cont. )
not in the mood .



meeting out yy , kimmo later for basketball session .
idk they playing anot . but hope so .
i dun wish to think thos unhappy thing again anymore .

iloveyou , rebecca ng .

dear , i will still love you , care and guan xin about you .
maybe tis is a test for us .
sorry .

everything have change .
u no longer telling me where u going .
sigh .

Everything i write now . is all from my bottom of my heart .

I dunno why u having a second though .
i treating tis r/s very serious already .
if u say is my attitude . i telling you here .
all my pain , and old illness making me very xin ku .
i guess u dunno right . cos i dun wanna to make you worry .
u nev care about me , it ok . but worst is u adding more to my wound .
Bi , i feel like crying out , Loud out .
and tell you how important u'r to me .

everytime u say tis , i keep thinking and thinking .
or maybe i ain't a good boyf to you .
Bi , if u find someone better then me . go ahead .
i not a good boyf .
onli noe how to add stress to you , onli noe how to disappointed you .

Bi , i'm sorry .
maybe sorry to you is nothing . but all i can do is jus saying sorry .
i still waiting . waiting for the day u finish your exam .

wat i wanted the most . is jus having you by my side onli .

Bi , i'm sorry .
i feel like meeting you out and tell you how much i love you .
sorry sorry . sigh .

thing may be not the same as before .

those lovely msg i nev had .

iloveyou dear .

Woot ~~~

Ytd sin tua . half way jiu run liao . haha .
went to vivo fetch bi from work .
Bi , u happy ma ? hoho .
then went back to tw till 11plus jiu go home .

Bi .
no matter how busy i'm .
if u wanna to find me or wat .
i will sure go look for u de .
dun think i busy then jiu dun disturb me like tis . ok?

Edna .
Think of a positive side . dun think too much liao .
Kimmo and you , from the way i see , u all not so fast will end de . laugh*
dun anyhow think liao . ^^ cheerup .
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Haiis . another 4 more day then can meet bi .
sian . going to be boring again . sign .

Bi !!! iloveyou .
hoho . mucak .

i will be there anytime when u need me .

jus give me a call , i straight will come .

ok bi ? mucak .

I missing my bi so much . sobsob .
she now busy wif her work and cant acc me to msg :(
But i understand . hoho .

Bi every msg i send to you jus now .
is i really miss you too much so i have to send . hoho .

Dear . sorry for not being understanding .
ya , i noe study is important . so i nev say anything .
but i jus dun like your fren(your bro) .
i detest you to go out wif them .
maybe i jus jealous . idk . =.=


went to my teacher wedding .
so the romatic lo .
waa . if bi wif me , think she sure like it very much . hoho .
taking photo wif fren of the gal from my class and kimmo class .
kanna force . =.=
dun have the pic wif me , but think they will upload bahx .
slack , smoke and toking crap .
bus home wif yy and kimmo .
half way on the bus , i jus fall asleep .
damn tired . nev sleep ytd .
cos . . . . .
ytd reach home saw my bed is overturn .
stare at the bed for 3+ hour .
at the moment . idk wat to do .
move back the bed or jus run home .
i dun wan bi to worry about me , so my choice is onli stare at the bed .
wait till father wake up . kp me first then go sleep .
but in the end i nev sleep .
too disappointed to sleep =/

sign sign sign .
i miss my dear so much .
onli next friday then can meet her . Big sign .

Iloveyou , rebecca ng !! . hoho .

(in life , there is no real fren , besti , bro or sis .

but boyf/girlf will may be your future life .

not your fren .)

understand wat i mean?

Dear !!!! i missing you :(

Hoho . i will be posting tml . going to teacher wedding liao ^^

Dear i miss you lot !!

Dear i love you alot too !!!

i hate it every much everytime you give me alot of hope when u saying u meeting me .
haiis .
ytd i knew it , i tell myself tis whole week we will nev meet .
ya . i guess right . haiis .
disappointed i sure will .
but wat can i do ?
haiis .
u jus dun wanna to make you upset again .

bi , i jus miss you so much .
everyday we jus msg , dun even heard each other voice .
haiis .

since we started at 5/8 , we onli meet up for 1 time .
wtf ? 1 time !
tml . u say you nev work liao , but jus now u call and tell me you did .
my mood from up , go all the way down .

forget it . i'm tired of everything .






Pill and Beer is my life .

when then i can see you?

when? when? when?

haiis.

Bi , thx for giving to me after so long .
U say everytime u trying to give in to me , it hurt you .
Bi , i dun wanna to see you get hurt .
I trying my best to stop all those shit le .
i'm sorry .

It been day , i've nev meet my dearest girlf le .
Sat ?
yup sat , mostly she going wif me to my teacher wedding . wee~~~~ ^^
i looking foward to tat day . cos i can see her liao . hoho .

i think i have abit sot sot liao . hahah .
all thx to my girlf =x jkjk . haha .

going to sch was so boring .
nothing to do . cant even dota .
dota half way . teacher come kp .
kp back kanna send home . lols .
shit those teacher . whhahahahha ~~

later maybe going sleep or go out find momo .

Now bi was at sch .
nothing to do :(
cant even meet her .
big big sign

nothing to blog le .
all of my sec sch fren .
jy for your Ns or Os .

mostly dear , you too .
dun stress liao .
i willing to pei u at your side no matter wat . ^^
Iloveyou bi .


finally have been over 10 day .
no longer 3 or 4 day liao .
hoho .

I got nothing to say ,
jus disappointed and angry .

sorry for the attitude ,
i noe u have give in to me alot .
but i still show you my attitude .
i jus need some time , to think about it .

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The time we have , have been getting lesser and lesser .
u claim tat after your exam then u will go out wif me .
but i'm not stupid at all .
u say after exam u will be working . haiis .
so fan !!

dunno how long more .
idk .
haiis .

i jus miss her .
tat all .

i dunno i should be happy or disappointed .
.
.
.
Bi , i can see the change in you .
to become more caring as before ,
to give in to me alot .
.
.
.
even sometime i'm in wrong , u still choose to say sorry to me first .
i felt so guitly after tat .
Bi , i'm here to say sorry to you . for those word i have say tat hurt you .
sorry .
.
.
.
Those word u say to me too also hurt me lot tis afternoon .
" dun wanna to bother anymore " ???
sign .
.
.
.
tis week dunno whether can meet till her anot .
sign .
going to be alone again .
anyway , i'm alway alone .
haiis .
.
.
.
Bi promise me to study hard ,
try not to go to ite .
even if u have decide , i stil hope u can go up to sec 5 .
and promise me , the thing i tot u in the msg .
think of me every moment . as our heart is link .
iloveyou bi .
.
.
.
dear . u make me more and more love you ever since each quarrel wif have .
cos i'm understanding you more .
and i noe your heart alway have me ^^
.
.
.
ILoveyou gal .
and i miss you lot .


My heart is alway wif you .
and i have trust in you .
Mucak , iloveyou .

Here a story for u all , and my dear .

1year ago . there is a gal who love a boy so much .
they go steady for few month . and the guy jus feel sick after meeting her everyday .
the guy treat her so cold after all tis thing happen .
and till 1year later . they broke up .

tat guy found someone tat he love and the gal have lot of problem .
the gal everytime dun wanna to meet he .
cos maybe she jus noe sister , brother and fren is much more important then stead .
she nev think for her future , fren onli can be for a period of time .
but stead maybe can be for a life time .
she jus cant understand , why her stead miss her so much .
she jus dun understand .

tat guy keep it in his heart for so long , and keep asking why he have a stead like tis .
why does his stead dun care about he at all .
alot of why .
he feel so stress up , and crying over nite everyday .
cos he have a broken heart long ago .
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Bi . maybe ya today , jus now at msn .
i have given u attitude .
and saying something tat i should'nt be saying .
for u . ya , maybe fren and sister is much more important then me .
but dear for me , stead alway place 1st in my heart .
or maybe , u have fren to find . but i dun have .

dear , i miss you kiss , i miss the way you joke me wif around .
i miss everything .
tml sch reopen . i dun have much time to see u le .
even now i crying , u dun noe .
i jus damn miss u alot dear .
really is alot .

i now finally noe , why tat time i wif her , when i send her home she cry and claim tat she miss me .
i finally noe the feeling .


Bi , i hope later u can msg me again later on .
sorry for everything .

all i can do is jus look at your pic and cry .


i really really miss you alot .
can u feel it .

happy brithday bro , Momo.

hope we buy de cake u will like it .
i agreen is small . but we jus have the money to buy tis . sorry bro .
if we work liao , we sure buy big cake .^^

ytd . after cut cake , we to lot 1 wait for nigel .
after tat go to vivo , ma de .
go to there jus eat the stupid hokkie mee .
then go back . Fuck up .
send bi go home after tat went back lot 1 find them .
in the end they at lot 1 watch the fucking movie .
finish movie then slack at lot 1 awhile wif them .
after all go to limbang dota .^^
the gal jus go home and we boy dota .
left felicia alone and she keep complain tat she hungry . zzz .
after dota done . and wanted to go eat . felicia and gary say they tired and go home .
left momo , long , wong , nigel , yy and me go yt eat .
tat time i was super tired liao . jus eat le jiu faster go home .

i wanna to stop smoking and i noe i can do it .
i not going to buy anymore cig .
i will try my best to tahan .

Bi , ytd i have alot of fun wif you and the other .
if almost everyday , my life is like tis .
i think i will be more and more love you . haha .
the kiss tat u given to me make me damn happy .
nev tot of u will give me a kiss , but u did .
i have a wonderful time wif u bi .
iloveyou .

Bi , tis is wat i wan from you .
like how ytd :(

thing will be hide in my heart and no one will noe .
even how sour, jealous , angry , disappointed and upset .
all will be kept in my heart .
to wait till my limit .

Blah , Blah , blah .
next time , you all wont see me toking out my xin shi come out wif u all liao .
everything will be hide inside of my heart .

I really feel like putting tattoo on my left leg .
but thinking for so long ytd , and dear call me not to put too .
i decided not to put . jus beacuse of her . and 1 more person .

i really disappoint tat person alot .
for so long i nev see he come up liao .
all beacuse he care for us , and me jus like dun care dun care .
he noe me the best , he understand me alot , he noe wat i thinking and wat i going to do next .
use to tok watever unhappy thing wif he . now i jus cant see he .
Sorry god-father . after the 4 stick tat i smoke finish , i try to quit .
and watever thing u ask me to change too , i have done half .
even writing over here u can see , but i noe u noe wat i thinking .

ytd bi fall asleep at 12 plus .
after tat . i'm jiu boring to death . haiis .
no one acc me to msg . nothing .

now i got alot of thing wanna to say out .
but who there for me ?
so fan . haiis .

today is the 3rd day again .
time pass so slow when i wif her .
when not wif her . and wanted to wait till her exam over , time jus pass fucking fast .
haha .

Bi , i really miss you alot .
haiis .




everything quarrel wif you , my heart will hurt 1 time .
a deep deep cut inside my heart :'(

(Update-d)
wa. shit . i blog till cannot post . wtf !!

dear , sorry for the last post .
i tot u ytd le . hope u can think .
and i noe u have give in to me liao .
i happy too .

dear ytd wat you have tot me in msg i very happy .
really .

i love you my girlf .
and pls think of a name . hehe .
u should noe wat name bahx .
hoho .

pls dun anyhow think , kk .

Dear, i dunno jus now do i really disappointed you again .
i jus telling wat i really wan .
but i noe i will nev get wat i wan . so i not asking for more right now .
i noe your attitude , and i noe tis few day u give in to me alot .
i'm your boyf . i can sense it .
Dear . i'm really sorry for wat i say jus now in the msg .
dun get angry or wat anymore hao ma ?
du bu qi :(

ytd u came to my sch and fetch me , i really really happy .
you are the 2nd gal tat came to sch fetch me .
i tot i will nev have a chance to feel it anymore .
but ytd i jus feel how happy i'm .
i'm here to say thank my dear .
thank for everything u have done for me .
it time for me not to show attitude le .

Iloveyou Dear ^^




dear no matter wat i wont leave you . i will stay at your side .
and i have no regrat at all .
i have make a right choice now .

My blog skin have change all thx to my girlf . ^^
thx dear .

anyway thing have happen . thing tat happen cannot be change back .
if really wanna to change back , it still need time .
if u happen to passby and see tis post .
i'm here to say sorry to you .

maybe u still think i'm 2headsnake . but do u noe why i wanna to be like tis .
put yourself in my shoe and think about it .
i also dun wanna to say more .
i can understand how u feel .
and if we really wan to wrack you .
we long ago have wrack .
think about it .

i dunno i have make a right choice anot .
when we patch back le . i have a different feeling for her .
i dunno wat is tat feeling feel .
but girlf . i stil love you as much as last time .
when we start at 5/7/08 once again .
i really damn happy .
happy till dunno wat to say and jus cant get to any sleep .

maybe i should be back myself and dun care so much .
the more i care for you , the more i worry .
sorry dear if i say till like tis .

you are the gal that god given to me .
i swear to the god , i will give you happiness .
iloveyou .



Baby . i loveyou very very much .
but when then i can heard from you :(

Aaron Kwok, go brush up on your English and Chinese.
Standard VERY VERY low :/
Next time got feel then edit nicer skins for you.

I love you, Boyf.

Sorry for not posting the past few day .
cos i wanna to tell u all tat .
i'm not single anymore . ^^

ytd jus patch wif her . i mean today early in the morning .
hoho . was damn happy la .
haha .

thing happening again .
8year bro ? 6 year bro ?
wat the fuck is tis .

i really dunno wat the fuck you all are thinking .
wan pun ?
pun wat . why dun silly your fucking brain and think .
haiis .
forget it .
everything friday will settle once for all . all for once .

no mood blog le . i going off to study liao .
byebye .



--XiaoAaron--
i dun wan anymore 2 or 3 day .
i wan everlast !